I know in my last post I said I was completely content, and really I am.
But I just realized something that made me have a little bittersweet moment...
My 1st semester of college is now finished, complete, gone, donezo.
I imagine my kids asking me what college was like in the beginning when they are going through the same experience, and I'm going to say it was great. It was memorable. It was fun and it was hard.
Where does time go?
Where did my childhood go? High school? Eventually it will be college, marriage, kids?
Growing up is obviously inevitable.
Well, I shouldn't say growing up necessarily, more like getting older.
Some people never "grow up".
But truly, I remember when I was little, playing in the playroom and suddenly realizing my house was too quiet.
I'd call out my Mom's name until she answered asking me what I needed,
and I'd reply "Oh, nevermind."
Really, I was calling out for her to make sure she was there, which she always was.
She called me her little buddy. I was her "tail."
Where ever she went, you were sure to find me there as well.
I remember being dared to kiss this one boy in 5th grade, and I refused to do it.
I said "NO! My mom would kill me!" So instead, I held hands with him to a rock and back.
I remember having to wear my retainer to my first couple weeks of middle school and playing the
introducing game in every class. Embarrassingly, I had a lisp when I said my S's.
Of course, my name starts with an S. I had to repeat my name so many times before people understood.
I remember being at the gym with my sister Rachael when Madison walked in with his friend Robby,
and I remember becoming really nervous because I knew Rach was going to talk to him... meaning I would have to talk to him for the first time as well.
Don't worry, Madison gave me a very awkward side-hug and didn't even make eye contact with me once,
even though we had been texting 24-7 before that.
I remember his friend Robby saying "Well... this is awkward."
Now, 3 1/2 years later, here we are.
I remember sitting in my psychology class with Lauren & Shayla my Junior year of HS, making faces at our teacher, when eventually he caught Shayla, and asked if her face was okay in front of the class.
I remember Lauren & I laughing so hard that we had to keep our heads on our desks the rest of class.
I remember meeting my roommates for the first time, sleeping in my apartment for the first time, laughing so hard with them at a not-so-decent time of night and being exhausted the next day.
Here I am, finished with my 1st semester at BYU, going home for Christmas
to see the people I love, and working every day at an admissions office.
I'm almost 19 years old (which I know is still so young), but where did all that time go?
It just blows my mind to be honest.
Who knows, in twenty years, I'll look back at this post and think, "Gosh, where did THAT fun
time of my life go?"
Anyway, I'm just appreciating the moments I've experienced in my life
Because it's all gone in a minute and no matter how much you don't want it to, life goes on.